I've decided to start doing some public writing. It is my hope that something I have to say will be of some use to someone, although it may only be my own sense of clarity. Here goes...
Nearly a year ago I retired from a 30 year career as an in-house illustrator. The decision to retire evolved as my desire to explore painting/fine art grew. Although I was doing quite a bit of personal illustrations in my spare time during employment, I had done little to no “fine art,” and so the journey began.
Transitioning from a career in illustration to being a full time painter has been, and continues to be, challenging, rewarding, frustrating, confusing, surprising and all the other experiences that come when you are learning and growing. Definitely the right decision for this time in my life but not the easy road.
Painting from the inside out is what I am most interested in at this point. Some would call it intuitive painting, which is somewhat accurate. I bring many years of experience in art making and design with me as I explore my inner creative vision, but one thing is for certain, I have no idea where I am going when I begin. I show up at the blank canvas and the mystery unfolds along with all the confusion and moments of clarity.
The biggest challenge at this point is navigating between the right and left brain, the creative intuitive play side and the discerning (judgmental) side. This challenge has lead me to connect with many new (and old) friends, painters, creatives, coaches, teachers and even a sage or two during the short time I've been exploring this new direction. I am eternally grateful for each person I connect with.
Painting, making art, takes tremendous courage, tenacity and ultimately desire. Many times I question whether my desire is strong enough for what this path asks. What is the purpose? It is a big question, one that never seems to go away. I do know that I can learn to live with this question and keep working, trusting that the purpose will show up in the making, in the connecting. I have had glimpses.
The journey is unfolding.